I was worried this morning. I woke up with the sun beaming on my skin - but it felt more like God's eyes burning into my soul than a cheerful wake up. Guilt is a heavy blanket - and I wanted to stay in bed all day. Somehow this year wasn't what I expected and of course I didn't meet the standards I so confidently put in front of myself. Guilt of failure, guilt of sin, .. I have sewed myself a guilt quilt and for some reason it feels comfortable - typical me. I'm tired of it.
New Year Resolutions - in no particular order except the order that they came to my mind...
- -SIMPLIFY!
- -Blog every day - I think this would help me be more disciplined about my thoughts and maybe my bible study...I'd like to be more accountable for the way I treat the word of God.
- -Finish the 5 paintings I have in my head and have kind of drawn out
- -Read 12 books - one book per month! I'm hoping to exceed this by a lot. I've already jumped on the bandwagon with those darn twilight books - I like to be in the know. They aren't too terrible!
- -Regain the muscle memory of playing the piano.
- -Go on a mission trip - since I have been saving up for one! I would really like to go on another medical mission - but I'm having a hard time finding a place to go. So, if I can't find a place to go by April - I'm going to use the money I've saved up to sponsor a World Vision Child.
- -Go to a DeathCab4Cutie concert. Or Copeland - I would definitely take that.
- -Sew myself a dress and a purse to match with my new Christmas gift - a sewing machine!
- -Don't be embarrassed because I am 20 years old and I crochet, and own a sewing machine.
- -WORK OUT- can't leave this guy out. My goal is to be happier with my physical attributes by my birthday. I'm not talkin magazine worthy - even though it wouldn't hurt - but I'd just like to not feel weak anymore. Helloooo Rec Center - Goodbye Pathetic excuse for an athlete. March 26th, here we come.
- -Stop missing breakfast - its so unhealthy!
- -Keep up with my birthday calendar. I feel like a horrible aunt because sometimes I don't remember my nieces and nephews birthday!!
- -Work on my grammar and spelling. I'm sure this blog is a disaster. DISASTER.
- -Attend all... most of... all classes that are necessary.
- -Make better grades 6th semester than 5th semester. Organization will help.
- -Get Organized!
Studying: Actually, last semester wasn't bad at all - I did a lot better with my study sessions but I would benefit from working harder. Sorry BSU library - you are too distracting.
House: I HAVE GOT TO MAKE A CLEANING SCHEDULE. Its driving me nuts.
Room: Get rid of my junk-stuff (as dad would call it) - I have too many clothes, and waaay to many nic-naks on my desks. Yes. I have two desks. I should probably downsize in that area too. I want a place for painting, and where I can organize all my crafts and sewing. I want to feel like i'm not living in a constant monsoon of STUFF. I want to finish decorating too!
- -Put away my christmas decor in an organized fashion instead of just shoving it somewhere. Also, I'd like to have this done by valentines day - haha I'm such a procrastinator!
- -Have at least 2 Lia Sophia parties per month, if not more. What a fun business!
- -Put my coffee night plan into action. I seem to get a lot done when I go to a local coffee shop to study - that combined with friends is always so much fun! I'd like to make it a tradition. At least every two weeks I want to meet a friend for coffee and study. Simple - but so enjoyable!
I'm sure there are more that I've thought of before , and maybe I'll add to my list but since I'm also trying to simplify - I'll stick with this list for now. Time to eat dinner!
1 comment:
I feel you on the lack of achieving goals. I always set the bar high, and then wonder where the year went. This year I feel l’ve made goals that I care about, and I think I’m going to break them up into 3- Spring, Summer and Winter. That way I can achieve little goals along the way. I like your goals!
A couple questions/comments-
1.) What are the Twilight books? I’m out of the loop.
2.) About the mission trip; too bad we’re leaving Kenya. There’s a cool woman here (who is a doctor); she’s from Columbia, MO and she comes back and forth throughout the year to do medical stuff at orphanages all around the area. You could have come and worked with her and her team! ☹
3.) Will you teach me to sew? ☺
4.) Yes, I feel you on the birthday calendar. I want to tell you about an idea I had for Christmas gifts for the fam for next year…maybe we could work on it together. I think you’d like the idea for your family too…
5.) Do you have google reader? If so, there’s this blog you can subscribe to—it’s called Daily Writing Tips. It has practical tips on there that would come straight to your rss feed—a little dose everyday! ☺
6.) How is selling the jewelry going?
Love you! Can’t wait to see you! ☺
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