Wow so I'm so behind!!!!!

Okay, I know its been like a couple weeks since I got back from El Salvador, and I haven't put up a blog post, or facebook pictures (um because ITS BEING STUPID!!!!) and I just haven't had much time because I'm studying my brains out! But I have so many things in my mind so I'll put them up ASAP. 

Just got back from the lake (Pomme de Terre?) or something of that nature with my roomies Stormie and Brittney! It was probably the best thing for me. We slept in, went out on the boat, layed out, and read a lot of books! I got a lot of studying done so I feel pretty accomplished. We watched a lot of tv and movies too :) 

I can't stand that I still have so much more studying to do :S I know I wanted to take this online class and hopefully I pass it but things are starting to look gloomy. If I can just get my schedule back in line I'll feel much better. Its like I planned my whole semester for El Salvador and now that I'm back - I'm lost! My calendar is blank but I KNOW there are some major things I need to start filling in. 

Me and the roomies talked a lot about this coming year at the BSU on leadership - I'm super excited about the potential - especially because of all the steps we made last year. I felt for a while that maybe I wasn't needed there anymore, or that it was useless for me to get involved anymore because I didn't feel like I added anything. I think I was just at a slum in the year, I am scared because I always feel like I am a failure, but I really think we can do great things this year! I thank God for Brittney Victory and Stormie Dorrell every day because they truly have been some of my best friends since I came here to Columbia, and have been faithful ever since. 

So much I still have in my mind, but I need to get going - so I guess I'll write more later!!!!

I'm Ready..

to go!...almost... 

I've been an a tizzy for like the past 3 weeks, preparing for El Salvador, working, taking my online class (which is a lot more difficult than I imagined :( ), but I'm so ready to go! 

I'm driving to Bethany's tonight - and we leave for El Salvador at 5:45 AM tomorrow. I've got to admit - I'm a little scared... I'm not sure why. I've been on planes, been on mission trips, but I guess this is my first medical one - and the first one that I hardly know anyone going! I mean I know Bethany of course, but not anyone else. It's going to force me to get out of my comfort zone and live the life. The anticipation is definitely getting overwhelming because I've been waiting all year for this! 

We're supposed to have internet access at the hotel we're staying at so I'm going to try to keep in contact as much as I can - blogging will be a great way to get everything out! I think that I get to help the nurses out on the trip which is extremely exciting for me. If not, I'll help those doing VBS! which is always awesome because kids make me happy. 

I tried to pack "light" - we'll see if my "light" is the airports "light".

I feel a little unhappy because my prayer life for this mission trip hasn't been what I've wanted it to. I mean I have been praying - so much about the impact we might make. But the actual time taken to really pray about this is not something I'm proud of. I guess maybe thats why I feel a little scared. I know that I am doing what God wants me to - I just really don't want to be lazy for him you know what I mean? I guess thats how I feel about life as a whole! I see so many people that are "living" for God - but really its more like "couchpotatoeing" (sp?) for him.  

Father, 

   I need you. I need you to be with me. Every step. Give me humility to serve those around me. Give me the wisdom I need to do what you want me to. Give me the courage to use that wisdom when the time comes. Remind me to be a learner, because thats what I love to do. I know I have to study for my class while I'm gone, which is a bummer, but help me to remember that these things are important in my education, and I will use them for you some day. I pray that our team is ready and prepared for what lies ahead of us. Give us soft hearts for the people of El Salvador, give them soft hearts for you. I want them to see You through us, not just a bunch of Americans. Help us to live for you. And die for you. Thank you so much for the opportunity. Thank you for the family you gave me, and the prayers from them and friends that support me. I know it's a short trip, but Lord I know that every chance I get, even if it is a small one, is a chance to glorify you.  I'm tired of messing up. I'm tired so give me the strength to make the right choices. Be with those that will be on the flight with us - even the trip there is a good chance to shine your light! I need you. I love you. 

                     Adriene